For my first post of 2011 - I wanted it to be positive...unfortunately for me, that is not going to be the case, so I am going to keep it short until I am in a better frame of mind.
When things go bad, EVERYTHING goes bad and gets worse quickly. While I try to remain positive about my situation - it is getting worse and the whole situation remains very bleak. Perhaps it is a down day? Perhaps I am overly upset because I lost out on 2 jobs that I had great interviews on? (Which I HATE because I KNOW I could have done the job(s)..and done them well.) Perhaps I am not good at what I do and am paying for it now? Perhaps it is going to get worse before it gets better. Which I know it will as my S.O. is also out of work.
If anything - the one thing that remains constant is Chester. It is odd, but he knows something is up. I went to get him out in the field this morning...gave him a little hug and just started to cry. He lowered his head to mine and just stood there for a couple minutes. I think it was his version of trying to give me a hug.
2011 - what will you bring....? Let's hope it is better then what you have given me in your first 5 days.